Friday, April 22, 2005

the Winter of my discontent

I hate girls. Well actually I love girls, but I'm not very happy with your gender as a whole right now, ladies. Not to say that we dudes are awesome, but what the hell?

So, now I know what it feels like to have your heart ripped out of your chest (a la Indiana Jones), thrown down on the floor and kicked around like a soccer ball. THREE TIMES. Yes, three girls have done this to me. I've given as well as I've taken, but I don't deserve this. This is sixth-circle-of-hell type stuff.

Anyway, job: good. Girls: bad. Money: pretty good. Car: hanging in there. Living situation: soon to be improving!

Hopefully, I can learn contentment, and once I do that, I will find what I'm looking for.

Thursday, April 7, 2005


It's only been a month and already i'm forgetting to do this.

I just spent four days in Chapel Hill, NC. HEELS!!! It was crazy. Some friends of mine are thinking of starting a church there. ChapelHill is crazy, and very amazing. Walking around campus at night reminds me of Milledgeville, where I went to school, but moreso of my hometown Athens, GA. Athens is much, MUCH cooler than Chapel Hill, but they are trying. Nice restaurants, cool people, beautiful women.

But one sad thing I noticed. Everybody was walking around with their I-pods on. My friends and I kept thinking, how do people get to know each other if they are spending all of their time self-involved and introverted? It made me kinda sad. Not that Ipods aren't cool, but seriously...

So my birthday was this past sunday. And happy birthday to me, the girl that I thought I wanted to marry told me, two hours before my birthday, that she no longer wanted to be with me, that "that's just not where her heart is." So you know. It's a whole long story that needs many more drinks, so I wont bore you with it.

I did read Catcher in the Rye yesterday and today. It was amazing. And I'm starting a Joseph Conrad novel called "Nostromo." Never heard of it? Think you may have? Well not only is "Nostromo" a Conrad novel, but it is also the name of the ship in Alien (Sigourney Weaver's ship).

I also just watched the movie "Saved." I've never gone to a Christian school, but my roommate has gone to three, and he said that, while funny, it's not a very accurate look at Christian school life. I did notice, however, that it's a good look at Christian life in general. It's sad that so many people that claim the same faith that I do have to act so damn stupid.

Anyway, I'm depressed because of the girl, so I'm gonna go to my birthday party now.